Preparing my self for the worst case..

I'm preparing my self for the worst case at this moment.

If that time were come, I just want to be ready when I get those bad news.
If that time were come, I will try to handle my disappointment although that is not my mistakes...

If that time were come, I try to handle my ego and follow my heart.
If Allah SWT think that this is the best path for me, then I'll try to accept it although it is very hard to handle...

I don't know to whom should I yell out..


-zitrone-